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Sad and Powerless

Well, the fact that I haven’t posted a blog post in a really long time has got to clue everyone in at how maintaining my weight loss is going. :-(

It’s truly alarming to me the rate at which I can gain back weight when not paying attention at all. Clothes now don’t fit. Confidence is gone. I give it to God; but I keep taking it back. It is not well with my soul.

How many times have I written that I believe the key for my personal success in this journey is moving? God knows I will give him the diet, but He wants me to stop sitting around and get in shape. I feel like since I haven’t truly been willing to do that yet, I haven’t been able to maintain success with food either.

So, today I started using a new website (Lose It!) and mobile app to track my food. Honestly, it’s not so much about how many calories I eat, exactly, but about being aware of what I’m putting in my mouth. I so have a tendency to take it to either extreme – dieting like a mad woman and losing weight like a fiend, or simply not caring and eating whatever I want in any quantity I want (read: fully succumbing to gluttony).

I am starting slow. I am not diving in to any grand diet plan. I’m taking this first week to just be aware of what I put in my mouth and track it (which, by nature, makes me eat better). I’ve alrady been putting my Zumba DVDs to better use and have been having some friends over for “class” twice a week (which is actually fun!!). I’ve been using the community pool and swimming more and yesterday morning I started exploring some of the beautiful neighborhood trails in our new neighborhood (oh, and did I mention that we started eating out constantly because we were packing/moving/unpacking and just never stopped?). But none of that is doing me any good when it’s not consistent and I’m eating fast food regularly.

But this time, probably the most important component for me, is that I’m not doing this alone this time. I have friends who are sharing this struggle and we’re going to do it together. I bought Lysa TerKeurst’s Made to Crave Ministry Kit awhile back and today I finally opened it. It’s a 12-week DVD study that really unpacks the things, and goes even further, than the book I’ve already read and talked about, Made to Crave.

Included is the Made to Crave Devotional, which I have not yet read. The very intro itself is what prompted this blog post and really all I wanted to share right now, but of course that would have been cryptic on its own. ;-)

I also know what it’s like to feel sad and powerless in this battle to get healthy.

I want to lead Jesus girls on a journey that will help them find a stick-to-itiveness and a lasting want-to that taps into something much more powerful than the surface desires of wanting to weigh less and wear a smaller size. We need to tap into this power because the battle we face isn’t just with sugary, fatty or salty foods. There is a spiritual battle going on. It’s real. And it’s amazing how perfectly the Bible gives us specific ways to find victory with our food struggles.

Even for girls like us who don’t crave carrot sticks.

Can I get an Amen? Can I also get some prayer for this journey? I really want to see it through to the end, for once in my life, and I can’t do it alone.


Needing Some Encouragement…

Well, I’m in the middle of Week 3 of The Metabolism Miracle, and I’m actually feeling very pessimistic. I’ve had a persistent thought running through my mind this week that I’ve really been trying to fight, because I know it’s the evil one putting it there: “I’ll always be fat”.

I feel like no matter what I do, no matter what diet I attempt, I am just stuck right where I am and my body isn’t going to budge. :-(

I did have a moment earlier this week where I felt thinner; my clothes were fitting a bit better and I thought I might be making progress. Unfortunately, that moment is gone and I no longer feel that way…

I am almost done with 3 full weeks. I’ve lost nothing since the end of Week 1. Now, I know I’m not supposed to be getting on the scale, but I just can’t resist. How else am I supposed to gauge how I’m doing, if I’m making any mistakes, if the food choices I’m making are working?

Summer is coming. Well, here in Texas, it’s pretty much already here, with temps holding steady in the 80s and even 90s everyday. I’m still not comfortable enough to wear shorts and I’m still not comfortable enough to wear sleeves that are shorter than down to my elbows.

I’m eating according to plan, I’m more active and I’m exercising.

Will I ever be comfortable in my own body again? Even after hitting my goal weight with Slimgenics, I still wasn’t comfortable enough to do those two things, so I’m really starting to question if it’s even possible for me to ever feel “in shape” again…

Part of me feels like I need to just accept that this is the weight I’m going to be and try to enjoy life anyway. Buy some clothes that comfortably fit me at this weight and move on. Then I think, NO!! That’s not good enough. Other people have succeeded, I can too! Or… can I?

I’m sure my internal struggle is plain for all to see. If I feel like I need to keep pressing on, then I know I won’t be content until I get there. This keeps me from enjoying life on a daily basis. That’s not good. God did not design me to feel this way and I know it.

But on the other hand, I feel like if I accept being content where I am now, I’ll certainly never get where I want to be, because I’m struggling to do it while fighting for it!

I know there’s a biblical answer somewhere… I just haven’t found it yet. I will continue to be in prayer and continue to give this over to God, because that’s all I can do…


Ready, Aim, FIRE!

Today, I want to talk about and take aim at one of my absolutely favorite things: SUGAR.

Anyway you choose to say it, I love sugar. I heart sugar. Sugar makes me smile. Sugar lifts my spirit. Sugar tastes good.

But, I’ve been noticing a “war on sugar” brewing lately and I’ve started hearing more and more about just how bad this stuff is for you. And just how much I love it actually seems to back up exactly what I’ve been hearing about it, unfortunately. :-(

I mean, I understand completely how it can make you fat if eaten in excess – I mean, duh, right? But what I’m talking about is more than that. This is stuff about sugar actually being toxic, addicting in a manner similar to drugs and contributing to many diseases.

The weekend before I decided to research, and then purchase, The Metabolism Miracle, I saw a commercial for that weekend’s upcoming 60 Minutes episode and how they were going to talk about sugar. Something stirred and I immediately told the DVR to record it.

It sat on the recording for a good week before I actually watched it, but this weekend, I finally did. Not only did it back up everything I read about sugar in The Metabolism Miracle, it took it even further.

Instead of trying (and probably failing!) to explain the information from the program, I figured I would just share it with you. The video is the entire clip about sugar that ran on 60 Minutes and is about 14 minutes long. If you’re interested in being healthier (and I fully believe we should all be intentional and conscious about how we’re taking care of our bodies that are temples for the Holy Spirit), I suggest taking a short 15 minutes out of your day to watch this. Even if everything isn’t completely true or you don’t agree with everything presented (I actually don’t), we still all know that sugar isn’t GOOD for you and it’s not going to make you healthier or skinnier if you eat it. ;-)

Now, whether or not you believe sugar is nearly as bad for you as these sources (and they’re far from the only two sources that claim massive health issues arising from sugar), and whether you believe I am anywhere near qualified to personally vouch for any of these things, one thing that I do personally know to be true: when I’m not eating sugar, food tastes better.

Another blog that I follow recently said something like this, and I completely agree: “it’s easy to miss the natural sweetness of a strawberry when you’re eating Oreos“.

I remember when I was doing SlimGenics, a diet very low in sugar, I found myself telling my hubby (and others) that I believed my tastes had actually changed, as I was finding foods that were previously only “ok” to be just fabulous and taste much better than I remembered. I was actually enjoying healthy food. Then I went back to eating foods that were high in sugar and all of a sudden, those healthy foods were no longer all that appetizing. Now, only about a week into The Metabolism Miracle diet (almost completely devoid of sugar at all), I am again enjoying food more, in general, and as promised in the book, I am not craving sugar.

Should you remove sugar from your diet completely? Well, that’s up to you. I know that I don’t plan to never eat sugar again, but I can promise you this: in conjunction with trying to maintain a far healthier lifestyle, long-term, combined with my new-found knowledge on sugar (and I plan to continue researching), I will be reserving high-sugar foods for infrequent special occasions. I will also be much more cognizant of the amount of sugars (and hidden sugars) that I put into my body (and feed my son)!

What about you? Do you have any thoughts or experiences directly related to sugar? I’d love to hear about it!


Happy Easter!

And the angel said to the women, “Do not be afraid, for I know that you seek Jesus who was crucified. He is not here, for he has risen, as he said. Come, see the place where he lay.” – Matthew 28:5-6 ESV

Happy Easter everyone! HE IS RISEN!


The MIRACLE Diet!!

How many of you have heard things such as this? Of course, all of you! There are so many fad diets and pill solutions out there, it could make one’s head spin!

I’ve tried a lot of these diets over the years, including Atkins, South Beach, The Zone, etc. The only two that have truly worked for me were SlimGenics and Weight Watchers. Even so, like so many others, I’ve struggled to maintain long-term weight loss.

Over the years, I’ve seen countless commercials for weight loss pills, drops, powders you just shake onto your food and you miraculously lose weight, diets that promise to drop the pounds with virtually no effort from us (even chocolate diets!). But, they all seem to have one main theme in common: they all work in conjunction with diet and exercise.

Well, guess what else works? Diet and exercise. ;-)

So over the years, I’ve let this advertising and hype simply pass me by. I know there is no quick fix; there is no miracle. You know how I know this? Because there are still very rich, glamorous Hollywood stars who are very overweight. Do you think for one second that if there really were some miracle drug to make us all thin that these very rich and powerful people, whose very careers often depend on remaining beautiful, wouldn’t ALL be thin? We wouldn’t watch them yo-yo, just like us. If the miracle is out there, they’re going to find it first!

Cover of "The Metabolism Miracle: 3 Easy ...

Cover via Amazon

So, when a book called “The Metabolism Miracle” first came into my radar, I ignored it. I honestly don’t even remember under what context I saw it, but the sensationalized title itself told me it was just the next fad; here today and gone tomorrow.

Occasionally, this book would continue to cross my path, but I continued to dismiss even the notion of seeing what it was all about.

Until this week. I received an email from NBC’s The Biggest Loser about this book. Now, I don’t generally receive emails from them promoting fad diets or products – they stand firm in promoting healthy eating and an active lifestyle. So, I decided to at least see what this book was about. My curiosity was officially piqued.

Turns out, this book from Prevention Magazine is actually not about a miracle at all (I reserve those for God, thank you very much). I believe the title is unfortunate, because it made me believe it was another “we can fix you and you don’t have to do any work at all” fad, but it’s not.

The basic gist of the book is as follows: about 1/2 of the population has metabolism that is “broken” (this author calls it “Metabolism B”, but it’s often referred to as insulin-resistance, hypoglycemia, etc.). That is, their bodies do not properly process carbohydrates – they over-release insulin when carbohydrates are consumed, leading to a self-destructive cycle of continued over-carb consumption and carb cravings that are virtually uncontrollable.

While there is no way for me to break down this book one simple blog post, I found the concept interesting enough (and the reviews positive enough) to obtain the Kindle version from Amazon.com. I’m about 1/2-way through it, and I’m going to give it a try.

The book promises NOTHING without a lot of hard work and, in fact, requires a minimum of a 4-month commitment. Not only will my diet be radically changed (temporarily), exercise is crucial to success and the plan requires a minimum of 30 minutes a day, 5 days a week. This is not something that will be particularly easy, but if there’s even a chance that what it promotes is possible, it’s worth the effort. And the bonus? I WILL lose weight with this diet and exercise plan, even if it doesn’t fix me forever, as it claims is possible.

What exactly does this book claim, you might ask? Well, it claims that if you’re intentional about it, you can actually re-program your metabolism (by dealing specifically with the short-comings of your pancreas and liver) over a period of time, allowing your body to function as it was intended when carbs are consumed. Of course, the book requires a commitment to fairly healthy and smart eating. Once your goal weight is achieved, you should never go back to pigging out on carbs and eating fast-food on a regular basis, as it can easily throw your body out of whack (if you’re one of the unfortunate plagued with Metabolism B, that is).

Of course, eating like that is foolish for anyone; this is something I already know. But apparently, it’s worse for some than others.

Do I have Metabolism B? Well, only blood tests can tell me for sure. However, there are a series of questions that are asked to help determine it and I believe there is strong evidence to support that I might.

Best case scenario? I not only lose weight and learn the best eating patterns for my body, but it actually helps to correct some of the damage done to my body and assists me in maintaining long-term weight loss.

Worst case scenario? I lose weight and learn some helpful eating patterns for my body. Nothing in my body is “fixed”, but with a healthy diet and exercise, I can find balance anyway.

So, why not? Monday I will take on this 4-month challenge and see what happens. I’ve got nothing (bad, anyway) to lose, right? ;-)

So, what about you? Anyone else heard of this book? Had any personal experience with it? Know anyone else who has? I would love to hear your thoughts!

Happy Easter everyone. He is risen and we have life because of it!


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